I am the forever & always. ♥'

obviously I am.

I am going to die so soon!

Spm is just 3 days around and I am still online!

SIGH!

I miss him badly.

Know what?

your call means everything to me! really.

I love you, from the bottom to the top of my heart!

I think I am really miss you.

badly =/

I love you,

I love you...

the C.

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Tell me that I am fine.

I thought everything will be okay

& no, everything in my life was just not okay.

I thought I will live better than you

& no, I am breaking down again

I thought you're the one who will hold me,

& no, you never hold me before.

I thought I will be alright,

& no, I am so not alright.

Thanks junpoey to be my listener and help me out of these,
I know it might be a hard time for me to face these problems by my own.
& I know that I am so freaking wrong which I can't forgive myself.
I know I am being stupid to make a scar on my wrist which is worthless to do so.

Every person have their own life,
I know. Maybe my life is full of happiness but I don'y know.
Because What am I facing now,
It is the only problem that no one can face it by her ownself.
I know regret can't solve any problem.
I know everything happen because of my fault.
I know I can't tell my parents about my problem.
I know I am gonna forget about everything.

Why am I not staying inside comma?
Why am I have to face this kind of problem?
& why am I being so naive?
I thought I will get you back,
& you tell me that I will not,
don't you know every words that came out from your mouth are hurt me like hell?

I don't know how much tears have burst out from my eyes,
& I don't know when I can stand up again.
I don't know I still can stand for how long.
& I don't know why am I still need to smile with everyone when I am breaking so down.
I don't know who can I share my problem with.
Who will be so smart to help me solve the problem?

I cried & cried again when I said all my problem out.
I know it's my fault.
I couldn't blame everyone and him.
I choose to be that, so why should I blame?

I love you, ya, I love you so much!

You know what?

No matter what, I am still love you like hell,

gimme one year time to forget who you are and who am I,

please.

Maybe this one year, I could change your mind.

Sometimes, I just need to be all alone.

I force myself not to think, but you're keep spinning around my head!

I love you, I am really do. Loves.

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The day without your call :(

I viewed someone blog & what the blogger wrote really wrote bout what my feeling.
& I think the blogger has the same feeling with me.

I do not know this half year how I go through the life,
I do not know I have said how many times that I wanted to give up,
I do not know how many times I fall into you again.

Once I think bout you,
the past, the things we go through,
I feel warm, I feel love & I will grins.
Though it was just 21 days,
But you will not know how much I love you & I need you.
& also, you will not know how much I've devoted.

You are the one who put the full stop there,
& I am always the one who pull out the full stop and put in the comma,
But I know,
no matter how many times I change the fullstop to the comma,
you also will change it back to the full stop.
& I am always hope that is a comma.

You know what?
You were the best thing that happen in my life,
you were the prettiest memories in my life,
you were the best miracle that the god gave me,
& you will be the best best best best boyfriend that I had in my life.

I miss you,
I do what my heart want me to,
but that's not enough.
I love you,
though I know it worthless,
but I don't care.
This is the thing that I will do it until the day.
I need you,
your call just like my routine.
I need to hear your voice badly.

Your call,
I am always waiting it.
I used to hear my house phone ring at 2.30pm
I used to answer your call & talking crap.
I used to beg you to give me something
I used to make you forgive me
I used to hear your very own story
I used to say sorry to you
I used to hear your murmur
I used to make you pissed off & I beg you to forgive
I used to hear your du lan words
& many...

You're a part of my life,
Look,
How much I need you.

Squeeze back the memories,
I know this half year how am I survive,
Because of your call, I am tough
Because of your care, I am tough
Because of you, I stand up again & again.

You've change me lots but you do not know.
You made me become so not myself,
You make me know what is love
& how hurt was love is.

You teach me how to kiss,
You teach me how to hug,
You teach me how to make your loved feel the love,
You teach me what love is.

What I wanted to tell you is,
I wil not let go till the day come.
I love you more than everyone do,
I care you more than everyone can.

I love you,
from the bottom to the top
Shout out loudly to tell you,
I do really love you!

No matter how much I've devoted for you,
It also worth for me.
I am serious! (:

You will not know how much I have helped you out,
& how much I devoted.
Cause you never ever treasure me,
before and the future.

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& so I am still falling in

& oh not to lie,

I am still care,

I am still love

I am still miss

the boy I used to. (:

Head to tuition with girls. (: & yea. Ktm shucks like always. :( Well, in the shucks time, have some girl talks with Ann & yea, I did told her some secret that I will never tell to anyone & I hope everything will be fine. (:

You know what? She knows why still now I also can't put the boy down, just because of that reason. You will not want to know, seriously.

I can't imagine myself being like this also so how could you, my dear friends?

P.s/ You know I love you,
You do! But..

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I am a loser. Yea, I am!

& I admit that I am such a FAILURE!
Sigh Sigh & Sigh!

For your kindly information, me, Kahyee,Fong is a loser. Why? Cause I can't forget the person I used to miss and love. Oh My God! You know what? I notice it that day.

Story begin like this, this boy suddenly say he is going to put a full-stop there and everything end on that day. Once I saw this sentence, I can't hide my feeling on anymore, Tears start falling from my eyes without control and I don't know what to reply and what to say anymore just I take a deep breath and stay tough but I am really down. & finally I cried in front of the computer. Thanks to TzeKuan who cheer me up and hear my story. I know it's worthless but why can't I stop my feeling? W-H-Y?

Then, he call me under my begging. Sigh. & he fucking tell me that he is fooling around with his cousin. Dangggg. & so, I am happy it's just a fool but not truth. (:

Guess what?
I think I can't forget
THIS BOY.

P.s/ 2 years time,
If you never say anything,
I will really give up! (:
Half year time is already past

I Do Love You
although I know you don't!
Loves.

Tata, Bye bye.
Hugs.
Xs'Os'

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Memories.

There's 22 days till we GRADUATION

OH NO! Treasure the high school life, please, everyone.
The 22 days cut off Saturday & Sunday & holidays & we left only some days. Big Big Sigh.
High school life is always the best, I think.
No need to worry so much, right? (:
Go through many things in my high school life and yea, Memories always hit hard. :(
I love all of you, the high school friends.

Last time, I hate my school, I talk something bad about it, complaint everything and every teacher.
Now, I just find out that actually I do love 'em. The all of 'em in my high school life.

Go through everything, learnt many things. Uncountable. Friendship here are the best.
Learnt how to love how to sad.

Seriously, I will miss my high school life badly. :)

Owh yea, not to forget,
today morning,
I made a decision,
I not to wait anyone anymore.
Tired enough.
I still love you?
Nah! It will not be, again!
You, Loser!
You will regret someday which dump me off!

Tata,
Loves.
I am so myself now!

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Some kind of changes

P.s/ I am just wanna to forget about everythings.

Look, Kahyee's lifestyle always suck but never ever suck like hell like now! Omfg! My parents are nagging me for HOURS just for stopping me to using computer! Wtf! Okay, I am being rude nowadays without any reason. :( Sad case. But who cares? I have my own life and others too so care bout your own life lah!

Changes and different. I've been going through many things these days, and thought lots and lots. Some old memories remind me something, remind me that I need to change my mind and focus on other thing. Love isn't there for me to care about anymore. I mean that from nowonward, I will not care about the love's thing anymore. Put it aside, when things come to you, it's yours, when it doesn't then never be yours. (:

Hey, my life it's going back to the way I need to be. Study is the only word you can see in my life now. Look, no study equal no life, this is what my parents always say to me. From now, friends will brighten up my life ad I do not care who you are just once you are a friend of mine, I will treat you as best as I can! (: Loves. I hate argues, really hate!

I need to be strong, be different!
I want you to regret that you have dump me!
I want you to know that,

It's your lost but not me. (:

P.s/ your calls like my daily routine,
& I think I shouldn't be like this anymore.

I do not want to lie to myself anymore. Something different will never become same just as me and you. I know, we are different, totally different. You mean everything to me before but now you will mean nothing. Seriously, I do not think that I should fall for you again and again. I do not think that one day the miracles wil happen like what fairy tales did. This is the real world with cruel, no fairy tales were entry. I know that we will not get back together again. I give up everything on me and you, do not push myself into you again. I keep telling myself that no matter I received how many calls from you, no matter we on the phone for how long, one hour, 2 hours...It's just an illusion. you treat me as your friend but I...Now, everything seems different, I still will wait for your call because I used to chat with you on the phone but just treat you as a normal friend! (:

Before, I thought too much. I freaking thought that you will call me cause of something but the realistic tell me that I am wrong, so wrong! Just because you're bored, just because you need to talk so you just call me because you know that I will not reject your calls. Ya, I will not! Now, I also will not reject your call, why? Not because I love you but because of I used to talk on the phone with you, get? It's like I will feel uncomfortable if one day I do not receive any call from you. I am scare, I am really scare. But look, we are just a normal friend! (:

Goodbye to the old things.
*waving hand*

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keep it on!

Trial already end and results were out. Well, some results are okay but some are not. Sigh. What I can blame? I, myself didn't put any effort on it so I can't do anything just learn to bear with the result, bear with the nagging from parents and everyone.

Cousie went oversea last Sunday. No doubt, I do miss her much. Going oversea alone, without any friends or even anyone you know really terrible. Helpless though. Cousie, what can you do is STAY TOUGH! Six years later, you will graduate and come back! We will wait you so no worries. Well, we, every family members here really do miss you lots.

SPM is one month later and oh my god! I need to study hard. I mean really study HARD, well HARD. Okay, I am regret that I din study for 2 years time. Ergh ya, 2 years. Almost 2 years. Shit case. Sigh =(

Gahhh. Know what? I want to go out EVERYDAY once my SPM is over which means 10th of DEC! Look, I really can't stand it anymore! I want to watch movie every week, I don't care what movie is that just I want to watch it every week. You will not know how HAPPY I will be once I finish my SPM. Laugh Out Loud man!

Urgh, your calls is like my daily routine now. Once I do not receive any calls from you, I feel weird and feel unsecurity. Seriously, I think I need to change, I means I do not want my self live with your calls everyday. I scare I will be hurt one day again. I scare one day once you do not call me I will.... *SKIP*

P.s/ I love love love love someone. :X

I do love you, you know? Ya, you know but whatsoever.
I so not need any answer just because I am scare.
I am a failure. Don't me?

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Taking back the way I used to be. (:

I am not a princess ; this ain't a fairy tale

This will be the other me when having the make up & all things on my that silly face.

Well, it can say I am wearing a mask too with a smirk on my face.

When should the smile light up my face again, I wonder.

No, Kahyee's life shouldn't be like this. Yea, SHOULD NOT!

but...what should it be?

I also do not know. Sigh.

Why am I being so emo when many things still waiting me to go through?

I tell myself to be cheer cheer and cheer but I can't, why?

Sigh.

Okay, I will be alright in the next minute. Yea, I am

Remind myself, I am not a princess, so my life wouldn't be perfect like PRINCESS could be.

There's many roads to go on so hey, why am I still here emo?

Stand up, look up to the sky, breath the fresh air and shout!

I am still me, life should go through!

Be tough! Save my own!

Tata, going to bump my head into add math once!
byeeeee, miss ya'
lovessss. (:

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Life is full of happiness!

I am a happy girl that I can't ignore it!

I have a glamour life that I can't doubt it!

The important thing is,

I have a bunch of awesome friends that everyone would jealous!

Oh so happy day - 19th of September 09'

Woke up early in the morning due to someone's so-call-morning call which was actually around 12.30pm & he woke me up for studied! Skipp, cause I din really woke up (: Then, around 2pm sth, My lovely MONKEY, LoongKahYen woke me up and said she was coming to my house and later on, Kgaiter was coming to fetch us! (:

Okay, Around 2.30pm she reached my house and she was non-stop complaining that my house make her felt bored and she was totally gone crazy due to the boredom! And well, Mr.LimKgaiTer was late bout 2 to 3 hours. Screw it. Well, not to lie, I really do pissed off for a moment but then there was another reason why I am unhappy and being mad that time. Uh-oh,close that topic! :X

Beside, when I reached Gasoline and saw whole bunch of them and they did cheer me! (: Thanks to all of them, at least I am happy with them and forgotten some problems like the problems is non-of-my-business. Owhh,screw everything that make me moody that day! Forget bout it!

After gasoline, we camwhored like nobody business, we played, we crapped, then we went for the movie which named TSUNAMI, the so-call-Tsunami just have ten minutes inside the movie. I think Korean's director don't have potential to make this kind of movie! I prefer the day after tomorrow more! (: Loves. Owh, I reached home at 1.30am! & Mummy isn't scolding me I am happy!

P.s/Not forget, Dennis said I have slimmed down so much and he said I damn hyper that day! (: Loves.